Don't Know Why
“Lost” and “wandering” are some words that come to mind to describe how I have been feeling lately. I have been questioning who I am and the type of person I want to be; not thinking I am worthy or enough for people. I believe that I am a good person but still cannot shake this feeling. I keep going back to the things that I hold close to my heart like my wonderful friends and family, my hopes and dreams, and the promises of God. I find myself discontent and hopeless and frustrated with my faith despite having so much in my life that is okay. I am starting to understand the restlessness of the Israelites while wandering around the desert; I am starting to understand their desire to want to dwell in the place of God; I am starting to understand the anticipation of the promises God had for them and having difficulty in times of waiting. I feel like I am in a season of waiting. I know God has great plans for me, but I am having a hard time keeping my eyes on Him and trusting in this wa...